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403 September 19 - Wednesday - 7:45 P.M. My Darling- You sure have a woebegone wife tonight - everything seems to be heaping up all at once. Still no mail from you - the fourth day- Bev phoned this morning, and asked me to come down. Why I don't know unless she just wanted someone to talk to. Bud is coming in to S.F. tomorrow on the heavy cruiser Baltimore - 6 days from Pearl, and Bev is going up in the morning. They expect to spend a day or two up there, come back here for a week or so, and then go on to Ohio - stopping at Great Lakes for Bud's discharge. It was sort of [pg 2] a hard morning for me, and I felt limp afterwards- Darling you've got to help me on this, because I don't know what to do and it worries me. By the end of October, everyone I know who I can count on in an emergency will be gone, and we'll be here alone. I don't want that, nor do I want to live completely isolated here in Carmel if you are not going to be back til spring. I've been alone too much, even with a few friends around, but I just can't face the prospect of being all alone without anybody. The only alternative I can see is to go east, but I don't want to live with M and F and sweety I just haven't got the strength to do all the packing and take such a long [pg 3] trip. I just don't know what to do. If we just knew definitely when you were coming home - it would be easier to make plans of some sort. Right now I feel as if I can't stand much more of this crazy life - its been an awful strain, and I'm so tired all the time. I don't like to depress you with all these troubles, but I am afraid darling, and I don't know what to do. I love you- Bobby
