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167 February 17 - Saturday - 8:30 P.M. My dearest darling: I wish I could be with you as you look at these new pictures of Wendy. They look just like her - and I think this set most of all shows how much she has grown. Wendy is feeling fine today - I felt alright this morning when we got up, but tonight I feel all gone - and am going to bed as soon as I finish writing to you. Honey, I just can't get sick here alone - it does worry me so, but I guess there is nothing to do about it. This morning I ordered ‘God - M and the J.’ It will take about three weeks -costs $3.75 - do you think you could spare the money (send a money order) because the stores won't take currency stamped Hawaii. While I was browsing through books on China, Japan, Korea, etc. I found Chin Ping Mei! And right beside the two volumes [pg 2] ‘The Tale of Genji’ by Lady Murasaki translated by Arthur Waley. I just couldn't resist and bought it. Do you want me to send it to you when I've finished reading it, or would you rather save it til you come home? It started to rain while we were out, so we stopped by to see Bev and Isabel. Bud is trying to finagle a job for himself where Bev can be with him. This afternoon when the sun came out, we made a quick trip down to the P.O. I hate going downtown Saturday afternoon, because the place is just overrun with Navy officers, their wives and children. When we got back, we decided to take a nap. Wendy, however, got fidgety after the first few minutes, and crawled all over the bed - and I was kept busy trying to keep her from rolling off. Darling - I miss you so much, and want you so badly - sometimes especially recently it seems unbearable. I just can't seem to get adjusted to being alone. I don't guess I really feel [pg 3] any more resigned to it now than I did when you went away. I want to love you and be loved - I just can't go on another whole year like this. It's not as if I could or would want to go out and try to find something other than what I have to carry me along. There just isn't anything - and Wendy is by no means a substitute for you. Darling, I just don't know what to do, or how to get along until you come home. I feel all beat out. It's such a big hurt to love you so much and not have you - Bobby
