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In a stupid moments thinking there would be only 2 days’ break in mail, I told Henry it wouldn't be necessary for him to write you when he volunteered to. Next time I'll insist on it. #43 Wed. Nov 8th 6:45 pm Sweetie- What a goddam shame! I've just written Muz, Henry (to order her a gift he knows about) and Dad (enclosing money for flowers). I was happy about your ready response to a situation that deserves it. To tell the truth, I shall be sorry if you leave Carmel: I love having you there, feel secure about it and think it's good for you right now. I like the friends you’re meeting, the prospects for future friendships and many other things about Carmel. But if they need you in Memphis and if you do feel up to going, by all means do so, darling. Will you promise me to go back to Carmel in a few months? (That is, that you won't let mere inertia or inconvenience stand in the way of it) You may not be able to get our little house again but I'm sure you can wangle some arrangement out of Gladys Johnston before you leave. Better for that purpose to make your visit for a set time (in your own mind, that is) - Say 3 or 4 months. Don't plan to go till at least the end of January unless they urge you to do so sooner; that will give Muz something to look forward to meanwhile and enable you to stay almost until Muz is back on her feet again. What a joy it will be to her to have Wendy around if you go! For a moment I'll keep on talking as though you are going. Maybe I'm just slaphappy about money, darling, but I don't regret a damned thing about the way [pg 2] we've used it so far and I don't think I will. So I say this: cash in our own $75 worth of war bonds (not Wendy's, of course) and draw another $75 out of the saving acct. You won't like the latter, but this is an emergency, sweetie. Chances are will be reimbursed for some of it - but let's not look for it - don't you think? Once you’re there, actual living expenses will be much cheaper, probably, and you can replace it from your monthly allotment. Leave everything in storage in Carmel except Wendy's indispensable, necessary papers and personal belongings write and see if Muz thinks you can pick up a play pen and a crib in Memphis; then consider selling what you have in Carmel or Monterey - it ought to be easy. Take the carriage with you as [?] baggage, together with one trunk. I hate to think of you having to go thru all that nuisance, sweetie, and I think you know by now that I wouldn't urge it if your heart weren't in it. Yes, I do want you to go, as long as you want to or feel that you should. I'm very pleased at your attitude. No, darling, I don't wish you had gone to Memphis in the first place. I wanted that only because I was afraid for you. The way it has worked out is so much better, despite any amount of inconvenience - you have won a struggle with yourself, and I think that means a great deal to both of us. Take your time making plans and write me lots more. (2 more letters from you tonight! #41 and 45) Darling I begrudge a single letter to anyone else under ordinary circumstances, if it interferes with my writing you - I hope you won't mind too much the arrangement I speak of in the letter to Muz I love you Warren
