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17- Thurs 10/5 10:00 P.M. My darling:- Tonight is so lonely, and I miss you so very much - Living alone is so futile - going to bed and getting up alone - cooking for one - it's hell, and I would do anything to have you hold me and talk to me. No mail again today, and I know how you must feel when my letters don't come - it's an awfully empty feeling - to go to the mail box with a tingly anticipatory feeling and then to find nothing. Bev has had no mail either so something must be holding it up. She came up a short while ago bringing half an avocado, cinnamon bread, and Pee Wee. She plans to go home around the end of this month for about three weeks, and will take 3 passengers to pay expenses and get gas. I hope she will be back here for Christmas, ‘cause I sure am dreading it. The war situations looks [?] now which isn't much help - I try to figure on 18 months, but it probably will be even longer. Wendy and I are really getting to see the town. It's fun, and hardly a [pg 2] block goes by that some child or adult doesn't stop us to have a peak - and Wendy either smiles graciously or else looks very solemn. I bought her a pixie-like pair of white elkskin shoes today, and also a pair as present to [Og's?] baby. The allotment check came and I deposited it - paid rent, Bev, insurance, and Dr. [Lusigian?], and we have about $60 left for the month after paying for the photographs. Wendy behaved beautifully while we were having our picture taken and didn't cry a bit. Grinned for each one - I was nearly convulsed at the photographer's antics, so I don't know what kind of a picture we'll get - The proofs are to be ready Saturday afternoon. Mailed you a tin box this morning Special, but they wouldn't let me mail the newspaper so I shall have to send you clippings from time to time. Wendy is demanding more and more and it is quite amusing to see her assert herself. This morning she woke at 5:00 and demanded her bottle and that over with I put her back in her crib, and went back to sleep or so I thought. She still fussed, so I got [pg 3] up [?dled] a blanket around her, and took her to bed with me. She gave me an ingratiating smile and promptly went to sleep til 9:30. I was squeezed on the edge of my side so she wouldn't get squashed, and fell out when I woke up knocking over the cup I’d had my milk in before going to bed and breaking it- The play pen arrived and is set up on the patio. The Expressman came to tell me that they had the bill of loading for your books, but that the crate hadn't arrived. After all this fine weather, it's gotten foggy, and the sea must be angry tonight, because I can hear the waves breaking as I sit writing here beside the fireplace - To bed now- with thoughts of letters tomorrow - I'm almost afraid to get them now it's awful not knowing what you’re doing- I love you, my darling Wendy's daddy- Bobby 9:30-Up, breakfast for me and Wendy 10:30- Make bed and dishes 11:00-To Town 12:-12:30-Wash, clean, lunch for us both 3:00 Downtown 4:30-Home cook Play with Wendy and orange juice 5:30 -Bathe Wendy 6:30 - Feed Wendy and to bed 7:00-Feed me and dishes 8:00-10-Read and write letters
