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149 (No #148) February 1 - Thurs. 8:30 P.M. My dearest darling: Am so tied up, it's almost hard to catch my breath. This weather is nightmarish - the whole house shakes. Have never seen such rain, wind, thunder and lightning. Every window and door shakes and rattles kept me awake most of the night, it was horrible. If this is the rainy season, I want none of it - and wish I was as far from Carmel as possible. I'm so tired and unstrung- feel as if I’d like to scream my way into oblivion. It's awful to feel like this. There still hasn't been any mail from you, and there probably won't be any til the weather clears up if it ever does. I've heard it said that sometimes it goes on for weeks without stopping. This is a hell of a life - for awhile I felt almost resigned to it - but now I have that same desperate feeling of being caged up, and not being able to get out. And don't for God's sake tell me it's the weather and not getting any mail or I really will get fighting mad- I love you so much darling, I feel as if we just can't be separated a minute longer. Surely, there must be [pg 2] something we can do about it. I just can't sit around here doing nothing indefinitely - you can understand that can't you honey? Wendy and I want to come to you so badly - there just has to be some way. Hold me and help me darling - I need you very much- Bobby
